Funky Moods

I've been in a funky mood the last few days so I'm sorry if you've had to deal with me or if this blog gets... funky.

This weekend was kinda... different. Friday, Claire and I went out to the Arsenal to do some shopping after dinner with Bino and Simon. We washed my car on base as well. We went back to campus to show Bino since he had been on my case about my car being so dirty. We dropped off the cat carrier at Will and Virginia's and gave them a couple onesies I got. They were cute, I thought. We went home and had our fondue night.

Saturday Claire left to go home and I hung out with Will and Virginia. It was the Trail of Tears and is Will's favourite day to go and heckle people at Cracker Barrel. We went to breakfast and then spent the rest of the day shopping. I got tired and went home. Claire got back and got ready for Oktoberfest. She left and I headed to the planetarium. I was in a rotten mood. Melissa showed up and we talked for awhile about Astronomy Day (Homer Hickam will be there! :D) and some other planetarium activities with other members. We ended up leaving at the same time. I offered her to drive her to her car because it was dark and creepy at that hour. I told her sometime I wanted to talk about a few things with her. She started in on the things right there. We spent forever talking and when I left I felt a lot better about things. I headed home from the mountain, called my mom and then went to bed.

Sunday I woke up and lounged around my room for awhile. It was 10 till 11 and Claire wasn't up yet so I decided I needed to get out. I was kinda irked by her and didn't really want to be around the apartment. I went shopping and came back. Her car wasn't there and I got even more bothered. I went upstairs, put everything away and then started to make lunch. She come home and we talked for a second before we both started yelling at each other. Turns out we both have had stressors that neither knew about that had been bothering us. In the midst of the yelling (if you know me, you know this) my voice began to shake and tears started welling up in my eyes. I walked over to her and hugged her. We both started sobbing. My favourite line from her : We're a pair, aren't we? We're better now and we've survived our first fight. I told her my part was mainly because I've felt so alone lately and then every time I come home it seems she isn't there and if she comes back while I'm there she leaves about 20 mins later. I told her I'll be weird for the next couple weeks since she was planning on being gone next weekend too. Though it now seems like we'll take Pete downtown for awhile and listen to some music at Big Spring Jam from somewhere downtown and then just hang out. So that doesn't seem as bad. Anyway, I'm hoping this bleh feeling I'm having will pass over. It's getting kinda old. Especially for me. After we worked everything out we had chocolate (it always makes everything better) and we talked. We then went out to Brent's (a former camp counselor who I have lunch with every once in awhile) to get some furniture. He had moved into a new house and had gotten new stuff. We got some random things. I got a desk, we got a recliner and silverware, Bino got a Papasean (sp?) chair, Bino's daughter Amanda got a Lava Lamp. It was a pretty productive trip. We went to Bino's hockey pick up game, moved the furniture into the apartment, ran some errands and then went home. We set up our stuff in our apartment and then both headed to bed.

Today was much slower than had been promised. I worked on finishing a few projects, but other than that, I've been sitting in my office, staring at the wall. The lack of things to do allows me to have ample time to think. If you know me, having any time to think is bad let alone having an entire work day of it.

The cable guy is coming tomorrow so we should have that all set up soon. Even better, my part is all paid up. :) I put the desk from Brent up last night. My desktop is now plugged in and my chair is ready for the cable guy to use. Once I start school again, I'll go and get my real desk, but until then, this will work just fine.

Wednesday, Claire and I are going to get Pete. I'm taking off from work a little early. I'm super excited, especially now that the apartment is clean and my room is all set. Once things got off the floor it helped me relax a little more. His bed and bowls are ready. There are bones around the apartment for him to chew on and toys for him to play with. We have his food in the laundry room and the carrier, leash and collar ready to go by the door. I have a squeaky toy and treats in my car. I'm taking him to the vet early next week after he gets settled in to make sure everything is okay and to get him on his meds right away. I am so incredibly excited! :)

I'm trying to turn around my attitude. I'm trying to count the blessings instead of the pains. I'm trying really hard. I promise.

Peace, Love and Patience,
-m